"Time waits for no one"

                              -Makoto

Yes.

First time indeed.

I waited until I was convinced that those fleeting lights I've seen are indeed what they are.

Shooting stars!

Yuff! No lies. And lots of them. It's different from what I have imagined and certainly far from what I've seen on various television/video screens.

The speed, time in-between appearance and the light varies.

Some appear and disappear less than one second whilst others travel the sky like the speed of an airplane. Actually, at first I thought they were, but I've seen airplanes in the sky before and none of them are as tiny as a dot similar to this period sign. I considered them being alien saucers but quickly discarded the idea upon further thought. Seeing one in my lifetime is sort of more than impossible. Besides, I saw another one which was also like that shooting star, slower than the others. It was enough to convince myself that I wasn't just imagining any of it. Though, in actuality, what was harder to believe were the fast ones. They were so fast that I can barely catch them so I lost count.

Still, I'd say I saw more of the faster-than-lightning meteor type considering the whole experience. Also, there was this airship type vehicle who flew in the sky as it continuously blinks red. It wasn't an airplane nor a meteor. It's a flying man-made machine that I'm sure I've never seen close-up in my life. Of course it wasn't alien. Uhgg, the drama of it all.

The time in-between each appearance extends from minutes to hours. My account on the matter may not be entirely accurate since I didn't wait and look up all night. I did it in dynamic successions I guess. When I wasn't able to see anything yet, I return inside for an hour before staying outside again. I did it for a couple of times before the time in between my 'shifts' (as what I want to call it) gradually shorten to minutes after I was convinced that what I just saw was indeed a shooting star. So, it took me hours to see more of them and at around 4am+, I saw them every couple of minutes. I didn't see two meteors appear together. They always flash in the sky one by one. Sometimes, as the one above me disappears, another one towards northeast appears. I've never seen more than one of them together so I call them solitary figures. Yeah. Lolz! XD

The news say the estimated time of their appearance is from 11pm yesterday to 6am today but I didn't wait for the meteor shower to end seeing that clouds were already hovering in the sky---making it difficult to see past them, and the sun was beginning to rise. I'm not very fond of sunrise so it's alright I guess. Besides, I didn't want anyone to find out I'm sneaking up in the highest part of our house especially my brother who has the knack of going home at wee hours in the morning. Speaking, he just arrived a little while ago, around 6am+. Good grief!

Regarding the light though, I interpreted it as the distance at which the meteors path collide with earth. I don't know if it's correct though. I'm a college grad but it's been so long since I took up material of this kind. Some shooting stars were simply brighter than the rest despite their varying speed and time in-between appearance. Hence, I figured some of them might have gone nearer for their explosion to be seen. Am I right in assuming the meteor showers were rocks from space entering earth and burning in the atmosphere? I kind of recall it being like that. Though the possibility of me being wrong is high since my childhood dream of becoming an astronaut has simply been that---a childhood dream, and as I've said, it's been years since I studied them. My interpretation makes sense to me though so I didn't deem it necessary to conduct further research since its importance to my life may also be just like a shooting star---fleeting.

Damn, am I talkative today or what?!

Frankly, the ones I've seen on screens are a bit more amazing than the real experience though there's nothing that could possibly beat it being real and all that crap. Maybe (no, not just maybe, obviously would be a much better fit), the ones on screen are overrated and extremely exaggerated. On the other hand, this is my only experience so there's nothing to compare it with---just to be certain. There's still what they call meteor storms (if I'm not mistaken) which supposedly contain more meteors per hour.

Yeah~~ I'd like to see that.

Oh, by the way...

Ryuusei = shooting star

Nagareboshi = fallen star (I thought I'd use this since I'm more familiar with it *grin grin* but figured it wouldn't be the best fit)

I'm on vacation... That's what I tell others who inquire about how I'm doing. It's been months since I graduated but I don't have a job yet and I'm starting to evolve the definition of sloth into something worse. I may even be the epitome of that word/sin. Yes, it is a sin, so I have heard, just like pride, gluttony, wrath/anger? and so on.

So, what's my problem?

I have no idea as well. I'm currently taking extra classes during saturday only because my mother told me too and there's nothing better to do. So, in other words, when I look at it in another angle, I am indeed wasting my days. I spend my days holed up at home with nothing to do rather than engage myself in different worlds that erases the reality around me for a few hours. When I'm not doing that though, I just think. Think and think and think.

What direction are you talking about?

Yep. No direction. And then I think and think and think again. Just like what I'm doing right now. So, what do I think about?

What is it that I want? Do I even desire something? What do I want to be? Am I what I want to be? Was that a rhetorical question? How do I live now after the possible knowledge of decreased potentialities? What should I do? How do I start towards it? How do I walk forward again? Am I not walking to begin with? Do I have a dream? What is it? What's bothering me? Why do I feel this way? What kind of emotion am I suppose to feel? What do I feel? Why do I keep making mistakes? What mistakes am I talking about? Am I repeating them? What should be done afterwards? That's what matters, right? I know what must be done right? So why do I keep doubting myself? How do I get out of it? Where do I go afterwards? I know I'm not the only one bothered by all of these but why does it still bother me? And despite this knowledge, why do I continue feeling like this? A feeling I can't even describe nor identify. So all that's left is uncertainty.

So what of it? No one is certain. No one is ready. No one knows what lies ahead.

I hope I can be like that child.

"I will go." When asked, "What is your wish?", he answered "None. Whatever wishes I have, I will grant myself."

Yes.

Just like that.

I hope to be like him.